Friday, 26 June 2015

Every Tattoo Has A Meaning

Hey guys!

I hope you're all well and your lives are all in tip top shape! I think for me now I'm back - the bitch is back!

I'm feeling great and am back to my old self meaning fixing cars, going out cruising and just buying more makeup and products than I ever imagined and it feels absolutely flippin great.

Anyway today's post is a bit about tattoos - I know there's the cliché that oh every tattoo doesn't have to have a meaning some people just like them; which is completely understandable but I’ll be honest all of my tattoos have meanings and I’m going to give you the low down on what mine are about!

#1 – Quote on my left hip “Have Faith, Restart; Just Hold On”

Now if any of you are hard-core Jonas Brothers fans you will understand this straight away, but I’ll be honest they’re lyrics from a song that helped me through an incredibly difficult time in my life. I was 16 when I got this tattoo but I urge all of you to wait until you’re of legal age to get a tattoo – it’s more beneficial in the long run!

Anyhow, this tattoo represents for me that I can get over and past overcoming obstacles in my life, if I’ve done it before I can do it again. Hence the Restart.
 

#2 – Cookie Monster face on my Bum!

Yes you heard it correct I have a tattoo of the Cookie Monster on my right bum cheek! This is a bit of a random tattoo I know but unfortunately one of my good friends was murdered in 2012 and he had this exact tattoo on his bum; so after the news broke with what had happened to him around 30-40 of us went to get this same exact tattoo in memory of our friend. I personally think it’s a beautiful gesture and I know I’ll never forget my Jay.


#3 – Arrow on my left rib

So this is my newest addition to my tattoo collection which I got around 3 weeks ago now I think! As many of you know from previous posts me and boyfriend of 2 years did split up and it was incredibly hard for me. But I went and got this tattoo on a whim as to me it shows that I can only be pulled and held back for so long before I just go, and I think after that breakup I just went and needed the time for myself. I feel great about myself now and it’s the little things that can really help!


 
So there you have it, my tattoos in a little post for you all! As I’m on my work computer all photos of my tattoos can be found on my instagram here

 
Let me know in the comments if you have any tattoos and if you have any meaning behind them!
 

xo
 

Tuesday, 23 June 2015

Is It Friday Yet?

Hey everyone,

So today I'm working from home, I guess one of the only perks with my current job - around once in every 2 months..hmm.

Anyway, I think I've realised today that I'm just not happy if I'm honest. I think I've gotten to the point where I'm fed up of everyone telling me what to do and how to live my life and I just need a break.

Even my friends and family think it's okay to rule my life and if I'm honest - It's not! I don't think that the people closest to you realise that when you say you need some time YOU REALLY NEED SOME TIME WITHOUT EVERYONE BUTTING THEIR NOSES IN TO TELL YOU WHAT TO DO AND HOW TO DO IT.

I know these posts the past couple of weeks have been a bit repetitive, but in all honesty how can I carry on with my life if all others are doing is holding me back?

I have my parents telling me not to see certain people, to change my number, to stay in every night and not go out, to do everything that theyy want me to do. I see their point, but my brother doesn't get treated this way, it's all a bit unfair if I'm honest. i know others will have opinions like, wait a minute they're your parents they care and love for you and my god I do understand that, but at the same time I don't want to be treated differently.

If I wanna go out, I can go out?! I don't have a curfew no more, I have a house key and soon to have my liscense, what will they do then take my keys from me??? I just don't get it.

I believe that everyone should be treated equal, because we are all infact equal. There are no differences between one another we are human beings and we are who we are in this world.

Everyone has a reason, and everyone has a identity. That is what people need to remember from time to time instead of jumping on their high horse and thinking that they're the most important people in this world - cause they're not.

We are who we are for a reason.

xo

Saturday, 20 June 2015

Mixed minds

Hey everyone,

Well last night for me was just a mess. Turns out that if the people you care about fuck you over so much you're gonna break down and tell them exactly what you've been hiding, and that's exactly what I've done.

Last night I broke out and told all the people around me everything that's been going on; and the main problem that I am no longer able to carry a child. At 19 to be told that news it hits you pretty hard, especially when people younger than me are now having kids and all I can do is envy that.

I've realised that I'm tired of everything now, I had a shower this morning and clumps of my hair just fell out because of stress, it's scaring me. With my parents not giving and damn and me pretty much on my own throughout all of this right now, it sucks. It really fucking sucks.

I miss the passion and ambition I had for this blog because now everyday all I do is moan and give you all a little update on my life, which some of you may find interesting - others not so much. Everything is just a bit raw and I'm just a fragment of sand stuck in a massive beach just being walked over.

What on earth has my life become

Xo

Friday, 19 June 2015

At Last

Hey everyone,

At last it is Friday - Hurrah! To say it's been a long dragging week is a bit of an understatement right now, and my god i will be happy to see the back of this week.

I've had a lot of time to think over a few things and I guess my minds in a better place right now but after a few drinks tonight I'm not going to be so sure.; but I'll enjoy myself anyway!

Here's to the weekend I guess, a nice chilled weekend but I must admit the weather is saying other things as the forecast is clouds and rain, oooo so lovely.

As  said before I'm not too sure where I'm going with posts lately but to be able to ramble withs hort posts like these is quite nice; so I hope you enjoy these rambles because I do!

Anyhow, I'm at work so i best get back to work, 1 hour and 24 minutes to go!

Let me know what you're up to this weekend in the comments!

xo

Wednesday, 17 June 2015

Liverpool

Hey everyone,

Today's post is a bit different but is about something that's very close to my heart!

HAVE YOU SEEN THE FIXTURES FOR LIVERPOOL 15/16?!

Sat here on my lunch break I've had a nosey through and I can tell this season is gonna kick off with a BANG!

Eventhough the main man himself Stevie G will not be around I think with the current lineup it's gonna be one heck of a good season for Liverpool! If many of you didn't know I visited Anfield last December with my now ex boyfriend and I absolutly loved it, I know one day I'll definitly want to move to Liverpool cause it was such an amazing city.

If you're a football fan like me and haven't seen the fixtures yet you can find it here hopefully I'll be going to another game this upcoming season and I cannot wait!

Do you guys like your football? Let me know in the comments who you support and if it's Liverpool - You Will Never Walk Alone my friend.

xo

Tuesday, 16 June 2015

Work Work Work

Hi everyone,

This is a bit of weird post as I'm currently at work, but hey ho!

Today I applied for many jobs whilst on my lunch break and you know what, it felt SO GOOD to know that I may not have to be here for much longer and that I can look to the future in trying something new!

i know I may not hear back from them but at the moment it's nice to know i'm atleast trying.

So to anyone who's not enjoying their current job go out there and look for something else, or just apply because you never know!

Trust me it will make you feel SO MUCH BETTER about yourselves :)

Bit of a random one this, but I hope you're all having a good day !

xo

Monday, 15 June 2015

Random Ramble

Hey guys,

Well I know I posted an update yesterday but today I just feel like I need to ramble in a place where I won't be judged.

Today I am struggling. I had my follow up appointment at the hospital today and to say I'm petrified would be an understatement. I don't want more tests to be ran on me, I don't want to know if I'm going to lose my womb before I'm 21, I don't want my kidneys to be failing. THIS IS ALL THE SHIT I DON'T WANT WHICH MAY POSSIBLY HAPPEN TO ME.

Life is so unfair, you know what I've even been praying lately, praying for happiness and my well being because I'm damn right scared and that I wish there is someone out there who can help me through all this and there's no one.

On top of all of this I've got to go back to work tomorrow and I really don't want to at all like I hate my job, my manager hates me and I don't get along witht he people I work with, and for the next 4 days I'm gonna have to sit and grit my teeth and somehow get through it all against my will and I really don't want to.

At the moment I wanna hide under a rock and just not get out for a while, maybe just book a holiday and go, but none of this is possible at the moment and it's not fair. I just wish things would go in the right direction  for once.

I'm sorry about this post guys, I will sort everything out soon - I feel like I'm letting my readers down by now showing nor giving enough on here. Believe you me I am trying and I will sort it soon, but this ramble, heck I'm sorry.

xo

Sunday, 14 June 2015

Update

Hi everyone,

So I know around a month ago I was happily scheduling posts and getting everything sorted for Cheshire Lane to take off this year. Then - if you haven't already seen my Twitter you will know that unfortunately my two year relationship ended 4 days after we got back off of holiday. I'm not going to go into too much detail but it broke my heart and I feel awful right now. I'll be honest I've had no motivation to do anything apart from sit in bed and just cry because I just felt like it. It's hard for me to sit here as I'm writing this now as everything is just so raw - he's blocked me on everything and there's no contact between us, and you know what it sucks. I could ramble on for hours but after seeing and surrounding myself with my friends I need to attempt to pick myself up somehow.

My parents also have just got back from their holiday and I've been by myself and unfortunately also ended up in hospital and was signed off of work for a week. If you don't like needles don't look at the images below!


So it's been a bit hectic and crap but hey ho, life goes on right and the only person that can make it better is myself I guess!

Drop me a comment below with what makes you guys feel better when you're feeling low, maybe they could help me too!

xo